We had some drama surrounding our first pregnancy/delivery as well. After all that, my husband had to leave for 2 months of training in another province. I have no family where we live and I know no one (we're new here). To understate, I was scared. Looking back, I didn't have a reason to be. My sister gave me good advice for post partum: she said there's nothing wrong with putting your baby down in their crib, closing the door and walking away for 10 minutes max if you need it. Sometimes their crying is bound to drive you bonkers and instead of doing something irreversible, put them down and walk away. That helped my considerably. Turns out, the time by ourselves was cool. We went to the mall (I needed to be around adults and I think some of the clerks knew I was lonely... yikes), we ate out at restaurants, we drove around to learn our new city, we walked around the park. Not only did this help with my blues but we created this super crazy bond. I know now what his cries mean, when he's bored, how to entertain him and when he's overstimulated and needs a nap. My husband thinks I'm a super mom, but that alone time really sharpened my mom-skills. You'll be fine. You'll look back and wonder why you were so worried. The ability is hard wired inside somewhere, you're just gonna get baptised by fire is all. Good luck. If you need any support, we're all waiting for you here on this website with our email addresses.